• Unfiltered Prayers

    Today I Decided to Fight

    Today I decided to fightI have been weary for a long season,For my grief there are many reasons.I am a tired soldier, an exhausted troop;I know you are victorious, and down you stoopto give me the strength to keep pressing on,even though I want to remain withdrawn.But today I decided to fight. Today I decided to fight,The depression and hopelessness are dense,There are days I have no defense,It’s easier to let apathy dispense,Will this one day all make sense?Today I decided to fight. Today I decided to fight,Instead of passively waiting for the day to expire,I am out of bed, seeking a spark to my dying fire.There are days that…

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    Faking Until Breaking: The Beauty of a Broken Soul

      Recently, I suffered a loss. Yes, I suffered. My grandfather ultimately was the “victim” of death, per se, but death takes many more hostage if grief is not dealt with in a healthy manner. I was held captive by this trauma that so quickly seemed to plague my life. After sitting by my grandfather as he took his last breath, I was left feeling all sorts of emotions that I could not make sense of –selfishness, sadness, anger, confusion. My own mind seemed foreign, at times. Most of all, though, I felt the need to fake fine. There are many lies and preconceived falsehoods about emotional weakness. Some may…